GOOD MORROW TO ALL :) <3

It's is 10:23 in the morning currently and...

I want to write all things I want to spend the following day :)

Start from the right foot . . . ;)

So.. first of all- I don't want to be bored or regretful

Now I'm going to drink tea with baklava and my mom :)

Then I mite go buy adidas track pants and go to the gym :)))

It will be nice I hope.. and then I will go over school stuff.. maybe text my friends and play computer games.

So anyway guys.. I have to go now and I wish you all a wonderful day! :) xoxo <3

Hello!! :)

It's been soooo long since my last post....

Anyway... a lot has changed since October when I started this blog-

  

It's now March and I have new worries to worry about"

• i made an Instagram
• stopped doing chapter outlines
• eat like crazy
• consider the joy of starving
• I suddenly became funny at school
• medium hair length and medium bangs
• drifted apart from close friend
• hopping to shift back together with close friend
• another close friend is moving away to different country forever
• I can start buying more clothes as I like
• I might start driving
• I'm Turkish drama obsessed
• I struggle with Physics
• started new funny drama and just omg - Ask Yeniden
• wan to be like Zeynep and have her fate
• talking to relatives by Skype
• worried about fate of brother
• want little beings, Sony PlayStation, and adidas pants
• so many things in mind but there is nothing

so I guess you get the picture.......................its actually not bad over all

oh and one more thing.......im considering studying to become a mariner

and i watch funny youtubers a lot

and  idk

Today's topic is "Perfectioinists"

There's this guy in my class that's like sooooo genius and talented, skinny, tall, Moroccan, and has a clever answer for everything....I just wish to be a girl version of him. I don't know why... I just do. I want to have perfect SAT scores and 5's for my AP exams and everything. I want to play piano professionally at concerts, be skinny and fit, and have witty responses that makes others laugh.

 But I need to remind myself that these goals are only picturesque...meaning they're delusional. What's legit is the time you take to work, spend your energy and take small steps towards the perfect images. Smallest steps are underestimated- some are really not easy- smallest are actually, i thing, the hardest. It's when you decide to not eat that little extra chocolate or candy and drink water instead, or read a paragraph and new vocabulary instead of watching a YouTube video. I mean we all think it won't matter, but it matters most.

People live not to enjoy, but to struggle. To my opinion, it is the truth. I mean, do we really live to spend 5 minutes to eat a meal? Food takes so little time, free time would soon turn to boredom, a favorite song would become annoying within 2 days. These joys come and go, not caring of us. But don't we spend 8 hours at school and work? Don't we spend hours exercising, making projects, cleaning and etc? The only ways to live happily and save your nerves is to fall in love with what gives you a challenge. To live life is to fight. But you better find something to fight for...

Well.. so as for me, my biggest challenges are: eating right amounts of food after school, not eating after 7 p.m, doing my homework on time, studying ,exercising, sleeping well, and socializing. I need to take steps to better myself. Thankfully, I have something to fight for. I really want to become a strong fighter. I wont to become stronger, and the rewards are just there to encourage me. It's important to stop being ignorant. 

Lots of love ~ happy fighting you guys!

Today is Friday,

Today I want to write about the stupid things people do without purpose...I mean, why do simple, stupid mistakes when you can do something meaningful instead? Einstein once said that insanity is doing the same over and over and expecting different results. I can surely relate to that today- why did I have to eat that 220 calorie grand chocolate chip cookie before going to bed? Did I have to? Was it temptation or the stupid nature of boredom? I can already feel my face form zits and hurt): And it's not just today- pretty much almost every day. I mean I wasn't hungry- I don't even think I wanted it, but I ate it and now regret it. What to do? This happens every day- to my life. It prevents the better things that I would've acquired. Instead of eating that cookie with bad conscience and than worry afterwards and plus dream of what could be- I could be thinking of more meaningful subjects- world issues, important peoples and creatures, personal problems, philosophy, and everything. Honestly, how can I sleep with such conscience? How amazing- I have water, food, peace, opportunities, bed, and time- what else do I need? I need to get over myself- I need to eliminate my inner devil.

Perhaps only this can help me.

Hello :)

Today I didn't go to school and take my PSAT because I had a high fever in the morning. I felt as if my bones were gonna break and my head fall off. The weakness and nausea overpowered me.

Anyway, now it's almost 6 p.m. and all I can think about is how education is important to every human. I believe everyone has the right to be educated. Sadly, today it is so underrated in the western world. Young people do not realize the importance of their future and education. They also don't realize how lucky they are to have free education. I think it's a gift from God if you're in love with learning and education, because this would empower you with ambition and passion. I feel like I need to fall in love with education- this way I could live a better life with a purpose.

But where do I start? By reading? Most books on my shelf are so uninteresting to me and seem useless. I like reading philosophy and history...but it's often written in books that are difficult and confusing to read. Learning in school? I sometimes find cool information while studying for school but school is also a headache.

I just need to start and continue. Hmm, there's so much to do. If I really want it I should be really serious about it. If I just be passionate right now and then forget some moment later I would certainly fail.

Wether you realize it or not... education is power. Everyone should have the right to education. I need to be brave and intelligent. Beauty doesn't even dare to come close to value of education- it is way far behind. What matters is my morales and intelligence. Everything else can wait. That's it.

Hey guys!!

So..this is my first post :))
I'm sooo excited
I can write about anything
And now I need to do my chapter outline and homeworks and headaches and all :/
I hope I can write often
So see you later blog:)
I feel like I just created a town, btw
Or even a village
And I'm the ruler
And the people who read this post are my citizens:))
I love you my fellow citizen :)) <3 :***